Another Airhead Friday

so, i realize that i have never blogged about things that happen in school. the highlight of my week is always friday.
1. because its the last day before the weekend
2. because its AIRHEAD DAY!

here are some examples: (please note that these things REALLY happened)
1. on election day, Monica was checking her laptop constantly to see who was winning the US elections...
Airhead looks at Monica's screen and sees OBAMA and McCain's names
Air head: whos that?
Monica: who's what??
Airhead: Obama? McCain?
Monica: :| WHAT???
airhead: who are Obama and McCain??
Monica: WHAT?

yeah, so basically, that was the day we established who Obama was... ON THE DAY OF ELECTIONS.

Airhead: oh.... so Obama is Black.. oh! McCain looks old. :| that was he reaction to the pictures we showed her of the candidates.

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2. Lunch today was well, lets just say she was on a roll.

we were looking at pictures of Jang in her friend's dorm and it showed jang working on her friend's bed -- in the pictures there was no pillow on the bed.
Ika: is that your dorm jang?
Jang: no, its my friend, Andy's :)
ika: oh okay :)
Airhead: jang, wala kang unan?
jang: *looks at her with disbelief.* WHAT?
Airhead: wala kang unan?
jang: OO C**** WALA AKONG UNAN! :))

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Jang: Napoleones come from Bacolod.
Airhead: What about Silvanas? can you bring me back silvanas from bacolod?
Me: (finally i say something!! :))) Uh, silvanas are from Manila i think
Monica: yup, just get them from house of silvanas
Airhead: house of silvanas?
Me: they have house of silvanas EVERYWHERE :))
Airhead: they have silvanas there??? :)
Me: OH MY GOD. no, they have cheesecakes. (i shouldve said this but i kept quiet and just stared at her.)

back again.

i havent been blogging cause i feel like the things going on in my life have become a little more private than i expected, so i've been writing in my diary more often. what makes today different you might ask? well, i dont care if the world knows this. i dont care if YOU know this. I think maybe its just right for me to put it out there and pray to god you realize the consequences of your actions and own up.

You, yes you. Not you, HER. what have you done to one of my best friends? 

Remember her? No? well, let me refresh your memory.

shes about, a head shorter than me, fun, peppy, energetic, full of life, and best of all, she's that person you can count on to put her friends first(sorry for the faulty parallelism, but feelings aren't something you really edit.). yeah, remember her yet? no? well, she's the type of person everyone loves to have around, she's that person that catches your eye during one of her performances... what am i talking about? she WAS all those things. 

this particular person i'm talking about, you probably already know who she is, she was the type of person you dont expect to lose in college. she was the type to make sure she saw you at least once a month. she WAS that person that stays with you till the end of... well, everything.

what have you done to her?

you think you can just walk in and out of my life as you please? you cant. its not fair. i mean, you talk about your ex, on your blog, when you're with us, and you complain about how he walks in and out of your life and how you dont know what he wants from you. well, i think you need to get a mirror for your apartment honey because youre doing the exact same thing. 

okay, fine, i get it. you needed space from him, and he WAS hanging out with us. but seriously, that was a SLAP in the face. how could you think that we would choose him over you? not that we were given a choice. you left, and said you needed to take time away from him, okay, we get that, but time away from US too? you couldve told us, hey when we go out tonight, can we not see ----? we wouldve understood, we wouldve done something. but no, you didnt even think to tell us that. 

i'm kinda sick of your false hope texts. all the "i'm coming out with you guys tonight"s and the "i'll be there in a bit"s. whatever. the sad part of all this is, i taught myself to stop hoping, to stop believing you. sure, they all think you'll show, they trust that eventually we'll see you, i'm sorry, i dont. the thing is, i'm not even mad. just astonished really. you've been out HOW MANY TIMES with your block, with your troupe with god knows who, but you cant seem to find the time to be with us. its really okay, i mean, when i see you its fine, but i have no time to react because when i DO see you, you're on your way out. 

remember that party, one of our high school friends had? you were there for like an hour? and said what? 2 words to me? and then you had to leave. i mean, sure there was another party you were going to but i mean, seriously woman, 2 words? 

its been awhile since i've seen you. last time was september 20. remember? that was the last time i hoped. that was it. i'm glad you're having a great time in katipunan, im happy for you, really i am. 

i just hope you realize that i did hope, i did miss seeing you, now i cant.  i cant be your safety net. i dont know you anymore, i dont know if you're the same person i remember. i just dont know anymore. i would like to get to know you, really i would, but i dont think you have time for that either.

just thought you should know.

- mart

Tearing up my Heart.

i miss N*sync. i really do. where did they go?? why cant they have a comeback like those dumb new kids-- i mean new MEN on the block. 

i hate thursday mornings. 

1. i have PE for my first subject.

2. last week you stopped by. i dont miss you. i dont think you see that. i would like to be your friend but you're not making it all that easy. i think you might need to get a clue and just be my friend already... or just lose me as a person forever. how very OC right? haha

oh! i want a my little pony. i went to rockwell, theyre so cute!!! the one that smells like popcorn is kinda gross. what would one do with a pop corn-scented pony?! 

3. i'm on my toes. just in case something bad happens. in case it all falls apart. its always on a thursday. my birthday was on a thursday... bad things happen on thursdays.

Not so superhuman.

i havent been myself lately. i dont know why but its just been that way.
Have you ever felt like you were walking around and just not mentally being there?
Have you ever felt like you didn't fit? like there's something that just isn't right about the situation you're in? Have you ever tried to describe how you feel and all you could say was :|?

i have.
tonight especially.
i'm writing from a very unsafe, unstable state. I have a feeling i'm gonna regret this tomorrow. Regret posting my feelings on the internet. Regret feeling this bad at all.
all i learned from tonight is that summer is summer and its not meant to last all year round. Sometimes people say, it feels like summer again, cause they're so happy. well, i havent been happy for awhile.
the thing about this is that i can hear your voice in my head. laughing at me for feeling like this. you've never felt like this. to tell you the truth, i was happy when all your friends were fighting with you. i hoped maybe you'd be a nicer person after that. i guess not. you're a real B***h to me and i cant stand it. i used to think that it was just your brother that bugged me but you treat me like crap and i'm over it. i'm over you as a person. you only think about yourself and personally, i hope you see this. not because you hurt me but because its the truth. I can ALMOST tell when you're gonna make fun of me. i dont care anymore seriously, who are you to talk to me THAT WAY. this is really it. i'm not letting you walk all over me. as of now, we're not friends. too bad i'm related to you. People are allowed to feel, and be excited about stuff and want to have fun cause they planned to. you always have to mess it up if that person is me. screw you.

sorry friends that dont get it. dont ask.

Called You Up To Tell You 'iloveyou.'

Have you ever felt embarrassed and sorry for yourself at the same time? well, i have. here's my embarrassing story for the day.

i was sitting at my table and then my phone rang. My maid picked it up and said
'Mart, Telephone!'
naturally i said 'okay :)'
went to the kitchen and my maid said
'its Edward... whos edward?'
'is this a joke?' i asked
'huh? joke? answer na!' she replied -- she said this with a kind of ignorance because she said it in ilonggo so i understood that i had confused the poor girl
so i picked up the phone with hopes that this was some sick joke.
'hello?'
'Mart? hello?' Edward said on the other side of the phone. His voice was strangely calm and well, not as velvet-ey as i thought it would be
'yeah, this is mart... wait, who is this?'
'uhm, its Edward.' he said, sounding confused at my question
i replied the only way i knew how... i panicked.'uhm, Edward who???'
this is the embarrassing part. ignore my stupidity and try to relate, i thought i was talking to Edward Cullen afterall.
'uh, can i talk to Marc(to fill you in, my brother in law, that lives with me, is named Marc)?' Edward said
'OHP! sorry, uh, one minute' i was laughing so hard i think i scared him.

turns out, the only reason Mr. Edward had a super smooth almost velvet-ey voice is, hes my brother in law's friend who works at a call center.
i was floored at the thought that someone named Edward was even calling me :| oh well, i guess i can only dream right? next time this Edward calls i wont be fooled into thinking that Mr. Cullen is more than a fictional character calling me to tell me he wants to marry me instead of Bella Swan. HAHA :)) that'll be the day. but just in case, 'yes edward, i will marry you' would be my response. (who knows, maybe he'll contact me through my blog instead, a girl can dream :))

....

i miss bea. :( i miss my best friend. i mean, i get that she had to move to the states cause of school and i'm very proud of her. i just miss her very much.

when we were in gradeschool, we didnt have much in common. sure, we were friends and all but it was never like, yeah, thats my best friend. we did have one major thing in common, JOSH. haha :) as much as i hate to admit it, he was the one thing we really had in common -- not that we knew it at the time.

in Grade 7, Bea and i were a part of the 3 caballeros and it was so much fun :) we were inseparable. We knew everything about each other, and yet again, we - never at the same time -- liked josh ( god, we're so strange) ahah :) but it wasnt like he was the only thing we had in common anymore, it was just proof that we really were similar :) i love my memories of Grade 7 because we were all there together and it was so much fun just being a caballero.

high school is one amazingly fun blur and it went by so fast.

now its like, i miss my best friend. i've never had just one but Bea is like my constant best friend. we fight and fight -- usually about music(at least in first year) or my lack of interest in music -- and still we're so close and we're always just a call away from each other.

i was feeling really bad about something and so i went through the same situation i always go through. i sat up on my bed, got my phone and dialed her house number. it rang and then i realized, great... she isnt here. bea has been gone for a week now and its really only hitting me now, i needed my best friend today and she isnt here anymore :( i know i sound so emo but its true...

guess i just needed to share.
-- mart(crawling back into her box)

Bye :(

Bye anj! :( 8539.3 miles away:(

Bye Bea :(( 8736.1 miles away :(

Miss you already Nics! :(( 6976.8 miles away :(

i'm gonna miss you guys so much :( i cant believe you're really leaving. its kind of unreal. 

i used to think that its normal, people leave but when they actually do its like, WOAH where did they go?? i know it sounds kind of dumb but nothing really prepares you for that moment where they're not just a phone call away. ILOVEYOUGUYSTODEATH! 

have fun in San Francisco(nics, where are you studying again???) , UPenn and Emory(even if there is a war). and dont forget to write :)

-- Mart

Stress.

all of a sudden things started getting weird. i dont know how we got to this point. you used to talk to me like i mattered to you, and you say i do, now i just wish you did. i'm starting to think you're trying to get back at me for making things change but i really dont care. this is the last time i'm going to feel bad about the way you talk to me. welcome to goodbye.

grr, i have so much to do today

1. memorize talumpati for SIAT's class

2. write my life story in 1700 words for COMSKI :P bleh.

3. finish breaking dawn -- okay, not soo stressful but i have to know what happens next!

4. ordev, need i say more?

5. get back into the groove... now that you're gone, i can be myself again :)

-- Mart

ask me to dance.

i have never really been the type of person that writes poetry. i dunno, its just not my thing. i'm more of a 'dear diary' kind of person. recently though, i cant seem to think of how to start my diary entries( yes i have a separate diary, hidden from the eyes of the world), so i've been writing poetry. apparently, i write when i'm stressed and this has been a very emotionally stressful month. its not like i dont know why anyway so why am i complaining? haha. i usually just write 'god, today was just so stressful' then elaborate on how useless and stressful my day was but now its like i need something deeper. something that takes more knowledge of who i am to understand. its like, i want someone to read it and only get it if they get the way my mind works. i'm not exactly ready for the world to criticize my work so i'm not planning on posting it yet but maybe when things die down and life isnt so stressful then it wont matter to me whether i post it or not. 

so, i'm gonna post some titles i've written and tell me which one you wanna hear... and maybe i'll post it :P

- Stellar Pressure

- Yeah You

- are you exactly where you're supposed to be? ( i was obsessed with the song from camp rock)

- CopyCat.

- Let Go

- sway

thats it :p i think. 

-- mart

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you wonder why you're still in the dark,

i cant tell you why but i can hand you a flashlight.

OMG!!! ikat, nica, paula and all the twilight lovers out there, 

have you heard the song: miserable at best by mayday parade?

well, it reminded me of Jacob's point of view. :( he must've been that sad when he lost her.

listen to it. i love it! haha. 

just friends.

have you ever felt like there was something in your life that just wasnt right? something that had to be changed because you wake up in the morning with the sickening feeling that something is wrong? i have.

i always thought that when i wanted something, all i had to do was work hard to get it. I never really gave much thought to what i would do once i finally had it. i was so careful not to make the situation a big deal, and now it is and i'm sorry if i cant handle that. i know alot of you are thinking, what the hell is she talking about? and i'm sorry, no explanations here, just me ranting away. i was never really good at multitasking which is probably why my grades suck haha but really, its more of the fact that when something is going on, i like to pay attention to it and give it at least the majority of my attention... i just cant do that anymore. i wish there was something else i could do but i cant seem to think of anything. i was fine with balancing everything in my life then the pressure came. the pressure to be something more, to be perfect or greater than i thought. i think i've hit breaking point but no one really seems to get that. the worst part of it all is it isnt even your fault that i feel this way. i can sit here and pretend that its just us, and no pressure and all those things that would make my life that much simpler but the damage is done and i dont think you want to hear the solution.

so now i've found something wrong with my life, and i see ONE solution and i cant seem to get past it. it works for me and i'm too scared to ask, will it work for you? thats what i wished for. (not that you'll see this anyway.)

-- Mart.

Stop crying your heart out

welcome to the world addie! haha :P 

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here it is... the last month, are you ready? 

Just Waiting...

so, my sister has been pregnant for 9 months now so we're just waiting for baby Adrinna Noelle Bautista Yao... i swear this baby is taking forever! hahaha!

-- Mart

You Wont Believe it!

so yesterday my block and i went on a little adventure. :) haha! this entry is gonna sound like i'm not the one writing it but believe me, i really did these things!!!

we were supposed to have Bibstud, but the teacher wasnt there. the rule is your class gets to leave after 30 minutes... well, my class has watches that are set a little too early cause we left after 15 minutes :) haha and BELIEVE IT OR NOT, i rode the LRT. yeah,i really did. from my school all the way to EDSA... well, at least thats what it said on my card thing. hahah! but we got onto a jeep/shuttle thing and we went to mall of asia! fun!! haha. at least now i know i can commute right? haha

-- mart

oh yeah, we rode the jeep all the way back to taft, super adventure right? haha!

AC

so anyway, today i went to AC cause we were out at 11:10 today. super early right? so it was fun, louisa and sabel went with me and we saw all the stuff they did to fix up AC. you should seriously see the caf. its super different. they really werent lying when they said that they changed all the manangs and manongs also, we have fricking candy corner in school. i mean seriously, who needs all that candy on campus? haha. i dunno, maybe i'm bitter that they fixed it all after we left but whatever. they also painted all the chairs and tables.. OH! the assumpta court! its like... clean. i dunno, maybe its me and i just never noticed it but its really big and super clean now.. maybe they repainted it... i wouldnt be surprised since they painted pratically every space they could get their hands on. i miss the uniform, i felt so out of place when i was in my jeans and tshirt while everyone was looking all... well, uniformed. i never really understood the phrase 'you dont know what you've got till its gone' up until this point. i really miss AC but most of all, i miss all the people there,. i miss all the guards, teachers, FRIENDS and people you take for granted. oh well, tomorrow's another day of new faces and college experiences yet to be had. wish me luck... god, i miss AC so bad.

-- Mart.

.:Summer Memories:.

so, my friend Yanna made a list thing of people that made her summer super awesome and i wanted to do the same because someone once told me, ahem ahem mrs.eala, ahem ahem, that you ALWAYS need to give your sources...and you guys are the source of my super summer. 

1. You. i'm really gonna miss you. i'm gonna miss you just texting me about random garage sales, i'm gonna miss playing rock band in your house and talking my way out of being the singer. you really helped me this summer, even if i saw you only once in awhile it still helped my summer become one of the best ever. i really wanted to thank you for always being around... whether it be to watch my awful pasinaya show or to just visit me while i practiced. i cant believe you're gonna leave, they better love you over there cause we love you so much over here. 

2. you guys, my bora family. i had so much fun with you guys, you dont understand. haha :P Bora wouldnt have been the same without you guys. thanks for all the laughs and card games, we should play slap pat again :P haha. 

23. we're the only ones who know how to rock this party. we really do. haha. you guys really made my summer amazing. i'm sure next summer will be just as awesome. from the practices to the performance to the parties that we went to. you guys arent just there for the good stuff but the strange and confusing stuff too. love you so much.

24. all of you, i know we're like 47 but really, i love you all so much, my summer wouldnt be complete without you guys. there's so many reasons you guys rock and why i love you all but i know you know them already :) 

25. here we go, these people are part of number 2 but they are so special that they needed their own numbers... first is my constant. you are there all the time. everywhere i go, you're there. i love you and i dont think i'm ever gonna get sick of you :P we're all there for you if you need us so please stop crying inside your closet. FOREVER. i'll see you tomorrow... and the day after that, and the day after that... love you so much!

26. i miss you na! really i do, but i know you're just starting to get your college experience ahem ahem haha! you're always there when i need you, and when i need someone to talk to you are always a call away. hannah montana was so much fun, when she comes for real, we need to watch together okay? love you so much! 

27. ateneo girl, i'm so worried you'll get lost somewhere in the crowd. make sure your badminton playing boyfriend doesnt lose you on campus :P haha you've been there for me for the ups and downs and everything else in between. i promise to visit you soon. my summer was extra fun cause of you, thank you so much for being one of my roommates in Bora. :) love you!!!

28. bb. is there anything else i can say? you're my fellow runner and summer would be unimaginable without you its like no you, no summer. i'm so proud of you for taking a chance, i just thought you should know. thanks for the summer bb!

29. so, you. your party was so much fun, i really hope you were surprised :) i miss you so much, and thanks so much for just being you. hopefully your classmates stop saying nosebleed to you every chance they get. haha :P and i hope you dont tell them you went to bankok instead of thailand. haha :p 

30. i cant imagine you leaving. its like, seriously june 30? i'm going to miss you so much, youre always around to make us laugh. :P i hope you have fun in SF. love you much!

31. you guys, every year is just that much more awesome cause of all of you. we left monte a LONG time ago but every summer since then has been amazing. i love you all so very very much. i know after this summer things wont be the same but at least i know that this summer was really fun and i wanted to say thanks.

and lastly,

32. you. haha, i dont know what to say. i had so much fun with you this summer for all the reasons you already know. :) thanks for this summer. :) 

thanks all of you for this summer, and i know there are people i didnt put and thats not fair so i really wanted to thank you also, all of you that i saw this summer cause without you guys there would be no reason to love summer. I LOVE YOU ALL. :P 

-- Martina.

TV and Bora Commercials

i wonder what people used to do when TVs werent around yet. i mean, i have 3 hours to kill before i have to go out what will i do?? if you really think about it, its 3 episodes of grey's anatomy, doesnt it make time just feel like its going faster? 

i mean, TV does have its bad side, like, i was watching ETC and it was a commercial of bora and i felt so bad :( i super miss bora and 21. i miss the suns

et and the fact that all my fri

ends were in walking distance. i hate TV... great, now myx is showing commercials about Bora. 

i cant wait for next year!!

-- Mart

Last Night

hey everyone!

have you ever gone home and wanted to sleep so badly then something on TV kept you awake till god knows what time? well, it happened to me last night :P

so, i wasnt feeling too happy yesterday, and all i wanted to do was go home and get some much needed rest. when i got home i turned on the TV and waited for something good to come on... i mean seriously, i can only take so much of david letterman and his lame ass jokes. anyway, i was tired of waiting for something good to show so i checked my trusty Nickelodeon :P i love nick, dont you? anwyay, so i watched what

ever was showing -- hmm, i dont remember what was showing... well, somehow i ended up watching The Disney Channel. I LOVE DISNEY. 

i super remembered nica, ikat and cheska -- just cause its the disney channel, i mean, c'mon what is more nica, ikat and cheska than disney?? anyway, guess what was showing?? THATS SO RAVEN!!! woohoo!!! this was at like 1230 - 1 ish? and so i finished and told myself its time to sleep but OH NO!!! it was LIZZIE MCGUIRE after!!! so i watched that too, god knows what time i slept. maybe thats why this entry is so lame, i'm so used to sleeping at like 11 my brain is somewhere else today :P

don't you think Gourdo reminds you of Javi Reyes?

 i mean think about it... do you remember that episode where he was too short to go out with some girl and he got super depressed? doesn't that just scream javi? hahaha anyway, these are the things that run through my head at 2 in the morning so, I'm sorry if its weird. haha. I miss Ingga Alcala! i miss her 'thats so ingga days' :P haha first year was so much fun. 

i feel bad cause I'm probably going to read this later and regret ever posting it :P haha i hope you enjoyed my soupy-ness :P 

-- mart

April 23, 2008

Dear you,

i dunno, but this has been bugging me for awhile. i hope you know this by now, its just something i have to let out there. i really wish you'd learn, i hope you'd learn that you cant depend on everyone for everything. i need you to learn that everyone around you cant take care of you all the time. i hope you understand that there are just some things you have to do on your own. please don't give me this 'i need your help' crap. i know you know you can do it on your own. its been bugging more people than just me, so please, own up to the things you do and please dont knock it till you try it. 

- me.

New Blog

so basically i thought that i needed a new start. is it me or is LJ so high school? ahahaha :P anyway, i wanted to give myself a new place to put things i like, and things that matter to me. 

oh, about the title... my old blog was called mart.in.a.box and well, it was really about how i felt so limited and stuck to the norm of everyday but since this blog is about new beginnings and such, i figured, why not right? haha. so, hopefully you guys come back and keep up with whats happening in my life :P